I was hurting so I took a shower.

so you couldn't hear me knowing I had to cry.

Sad to know that while my heart was breaking,

You were sleeping or just faking.

He is too tired to live, but he is scared to die.
He is  stuck between death and life.
He knows he should leave this place, but he keeps on waiting for a good reason to stay.

He wants that reason to exist.

Time goes on, 
and the only reasons he gets are reasons to leave...